I would like to point out, more the benefit of my partner's FL than anything else, that there is more to it than this. I know it is a problem and to a certain degree it is just me working out my own shit. But, we have two kids. One of them is fruquently in bed with us. We work opposite shifts. I know that this is perhaps a list of excuses for my own failure in this department, but damn. I know that it is just a matter of making time, no pun intended, but I am often so dead tired from both my job and my kids that there isn't a lot of energy left.

I know, I need to get over it. This being said I know and care about the health of my marriage and am trying to work on it.

So what's the solution? Whatever happened to my libido? Have I buried it in excuses both physical and emotional? I feel self conscious so I shut down. I feel depressed and don't want anyone to touch me? My medication has obliterated my sex drive whilst making me not so sad? Did I ever have a libido? Am I a self absorbed piece of excuse making crap? I have done a great deal of thought on how to address this issue and fix it and yet at the end of the day all I want to do is collapse. I want to be warm dry and rested in the morning.

What is wrong with me? I like sex usually, and yet I obviously have not been making it a priority.

Maybe no one is right here.